Compulsive Acts
I have this huge OCD problem that leads me to write more comfortably in English rather than in Indonesian. I love my language, I really do. In fact, I studied so hard I got 21 out of 25 correct answers back then on the SPMB (at least according to my university preparatory class’ solution). Talk about bragging, try to beat that up!
It’s just that, while I’m writing in Indonesian, I have an irresistible urge to write in a perfect form. Yes, I even cringed a bit whenever I wrote “nggak” instead of “tidak” just because I thought “nggak” was a little bit messy.
Q: “Then why don’t you do the formal writing in Indonesian?”
A: “Isn’t it too bizarre if you’re the only one who write in a formal way while the surrounding environment constantly using slangs/lingos?”
Not to mention the past, high school was even worse. If I decided to do something regularly (like reviews or school paperworks), I have to plan the writing method first so I wouldn’t find any loopholes in the future; Until I found out it’s very time consuming and ineffective when I got into the university. Thanks to you, chemical engineering assignments. To be frank, I still kind of inherit that trait; Did you notice it on my current blog posts?
That’s why I opted to write in English so, a) I can write more neatly without feeling awkward and b) I can practice my English. It’s a perfect solution.
I’m not a neat freak, I can be little disorganized and sometimes I left my room in a chaotic situation (although I tried to keep my room tidy whenever someone is coming), but when it came down to grammars, punctuations, etc.? I can be really hardcore.
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